Genesis 15:1
"After this" - There is something very weighty about this little phrase. It is almost as though the writer is coming up for for a quick breath before he plunges back down into another scene of this epic story. It follows the climax of an action filled chapter - Abram at his best with his God firmly at the centre of his life. These opening 2 words mark the passing of a submit in Abram's journey, a landmark of victory. To deal with them we need not only look back but also forward. Typical of human experience - Abram seems to plummit from his mountain top to a place of despair. He cries to the Lord, "I have no Children and a servant will be my heir". What a contrast compared to his indignant refusal of the riches held out by the King of Sodom. I guess it is difficult to know how much time had passed when the verse says "after this" but the author must link the two stories for a purpose. The humanity of the biblical heroes is never skirted over. Real doubt, real fears and sometimes really big failure. Can a man of such uncompromising conviction really swing to a place of such vulnerability and uncertainty? Can you hear the voice of God as clearly as Abram, see his miraculous intervention time and time again and yet spiral into a place of doubt and disillusionment? I think chapter 15 gives a resounding "yes" in answer to that question. We can take comfort from this passage. Perhaps the knowledge that we're not alone will add some perspective next time we find ourselves descending toward these thoughts and feelings.